Wednesday, January 19, 2011

It's A Beautiful World!

It's a beautiful world and I want to enjoy it again.

Somewhere in my life, I am not sure exactly when, I slipped off the pathway.

When I take inventory of my life these days I am horrified. Socially anxious, self conscious, easily intimidated with few "personal boundaries" I find myself withdrawing from most activities I used to enjoy and doing what seems safe and easy.

The trouble is the safe and easy route brings me no joy.

I can see I am becoming more isolated and tentative and controlled by anxiety.

I feel my life slipping by in a slew of excuses, rationalizations and timidity. I need to change. And now is the time to do it. I am hoping that this blog does not end up like one of those where the author stops after just a few posts. I want to win my life back again.

I am going to try new things, to research treatments and self help systems and read books and try everything and push myself to become adventurous and brave and to enjoy life again.

This blog is a journal of my travel to a new place in my life.

Please keep your fingers crossed for me!


  1. 'I slipped off the pathway', such beautiful words and so apt! I know exactly how you feel, it's easier to be at home where it's safe but that isn't always the best thing for us. J x

  2. Thank you so much for being the first person to comment on my blog!
    I am so new to this and it is a great feeling to know someone is out there!

  3. i just read this, two years later but i hope you have changed somewhat! i too get quite anxious socially.